Sushi, Anyone?
Fri. 05.14.04 - 7:44 a.m. Feeling: sliiiight nervousness but it's really nothin.
Listening: take on me - A-ha
Quote:
The minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than you settled for. -Maureen Dowd
argh. I can't believe it's Friday already. I have to leave for work in about an hour. I work until 7pm tonight and then... yeah. That get-together thingy with military boy.
I'm kinda sorta freaked out a little. Not for the normal reasons though. Well, i guess it is normal but not normal the way that it's not a normal reason for people in this situation.
you get what i'm saying?
ehh i'm weird. and i can't speak english apparently. So anyhow, i'm trying to just relax, take it easy, not even stress over it because all i can be is me. all i can look like is me. and if someone doesn't like that, oh well. that's their opinion, they're entitled to it. It doesn't mean that everyone feels that way or that it's true.
So i think i'm good now. I'm calm. I'm cool. I'm collected. annd.. i'm going to just treat this like what it is.. a hanging out. and i'm going to have fun. =)
It's funny how everyone's been giving me advice. It's totally welcomed. Though I should probably consider getting a new set of friends. That aren't so... eh, see for yourself.
I actually told my sister about the get together thing. She probably had some of the worst (yet hilarious) things to say:
He�s in the Coast Guard? His body must be nice!
You know what they do overseas, don�t you? hehe
You�ll be like sex in the city!
Is your hair still orange?
Whatever you do, pull out your wallet reaaaaally slowly. I�m just saying. Cuz I know your budget�s tight. hehehe
You don�t take me seriously do you? I mean, you know I�m not serious all the time right? wait. but you don�t NOT take me seriously all the time either, right?
I think M was the only one that had serious advice to offer (between games of pool of course): It�s the nice ones you have to watch out for. He also said, �judge people by their actions, NOT what they say.� Simple, yet very very true.
Last night I had this conversation with Buddha. heh
hamak0san: two things hamak0san: #1 hamak0san: i've taken the #15 bus a few times hamak0san: i just learned today that... hamak0san: the #15? she goes RIGHT THROUGH HUNTER'S POINT /bayview hamak0san: no wonder i've been scared whenever i was on the bus! hamak0san: #2 hamak0san: i was going to actually take the #15 Tomorrow night (around 10pm) for my date.. IN MY DRESS hamak0san: until i found this out hamak0san: what a DUMBARSE I am hamak0san: you�re right. it really is a miracle i am alive hamak0san: that is all. carry on. buddha: swastika i tell u buddha: dont wear dress. cold windy at nite hamak0san: but all i have is jeans hamak0san: that's not very nice hamak0san: i mean, not that i'm trying to impress him but it's fun to dress up hamak0san: maybe i'll dig out my long coat from the back of my closet in one of the bins buddha: Might as well go all the way n bust out the f me boots. since not a date hehe hamak0san: ITS NOT hamak0san: and i'd only take the coat cuz youuuuu said it would be cold! buddha: Issues man. 13 going on 24
Later, I talked to Pohae and she had these wonderful bits of advice to offer:
pohae: hello pohae: you still have the porno buddy icon thing up... pohae: hehehe - that should be your new slogan pohae: DUDE - the one time in like forever I can IM you, you not even thea pohae: HELLO pohae: if a person IMs someone who is not there, but no one can hear it...did they really IM them? pohae: Ponder those thoughts oh might one.... pohae: another thought to ponder on..... pohae: ponder pohae: ponder pohae: try it with me. just say it - it'll crack you up. pohae: hehehe hamak0san: hahahh you dork pohae: sorry - spazzed mid typing there.... pohae: YOU THERE pohae: i was getting all philosophical with myself.... pohae: is not that hard you know..... hamak0san: haha yeah sorry was in the shower hamak0san: and now i'm trying on clothes for my thingy tomorrow pohae: OOOHHHH - what are you wearing? pohae: open the door with the whip cream thing like on varsity blues and he'll be oh so happy. pohae: HEY THERE hamak0san: ugh i'm stressed over it pohae: why? pohae: WHY hamak0san: becauuuuuse pohae: are you only answering when i use big letters? hamak0san: lol no hamak0san: hehe ok loser. so here's the thing hamak0san: he asked me to go out and i just thought, you know what.. maybe i should because i need to get the hell out of the house and i need to get over my fear of meeting people and now i'm just scared he won't like me!!! hamak0san: what if he doesnt like the way i look pohae: stop IMing me. i trying to read. hamak0san: what if he thinks I�m fat hamak0san: argh hamak0san: this SUCKS. why did I agree to this. blahh pohae: STOP IT _ WAIT hamak0san: i mean, if he doesnt like the way i look, that's cool cuz why do you want someone who doest want you hamak0san: it's just that i'm afraid of how AWKWARD itll be once he says.. "sorry you're ugly." hamak0san: then i have to do that long walk back to my bus or train� hamak0san: heh pohae: huh? pohae: so? hamak0san: so it's just... it hurts one's self esteem ya know? pohae: it's called opinions dear pohae: WHO GIVES A RIP pohae: don't care what he thinks.....
pohae
: he not important yet pohae: wait til he important ....then wonder hamak0san: hmmm you know what? you're totally right pohae: by then you can ask him hamak0san: yeah i think i've been stressing over this way too much pohae: then he'll give you the RIGHT answer. which will be yes... pohae: :-) hamak0san: i should just relax, go have fun and if he doesn't like me... oh well. dun matter cuz I wasn�t so into him anyway. i'm fine. god youre' so right pohae: be YOU - not what YOU think you should be like - don't be afraid. pohae: I KNOW HOW YOU ARE - you can't hide from me.....BE YOU AS YOU ARE pohae: you are wonderful, beautiful, intelligent and sincere.... pohae: trustworthy and kind pohae: let it show girl - they'll drop like flies at your feet hamak0san: aww you�re gonna make me cry hamak0san: you're the best, you know? pohae: then again, you could also have the same reaction if you dress like a ho....HAHAHAHAHA
We talked more on the phone later.
When I showed her what I was thinking of wearing, she said "no don�t wear that. You�re wrapped up like sushi in that thing. That�s just screaming �unwrap me�!"
I�ve decided to go with jeans.
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