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Mon. 03.01.04 - 8:49 p.m.

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so.. i had this moment where i was so angry and upset about everything that i felt like i couldn't hold it in.. i had to let it out.

blahhh i emailed him.

but get this. it bounced back. he deleted his account.

i know i should be happy that he's finally decided to leave me alone.

but in a small way, i'm not.

and that pisses me off more than anything. but i'm starting to realize maybe that's because as much as i hate to admit this.. i'm lonely. i'm lonely and he knows how to make me feel.. not lonely. To his credit, he genuinely made me happy. But i need to remember he made me unhappy as well.

so back to sticking to my plan of being alone and only letting those with good intentions near me.

blahhhhhhhhhh

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